I should be writing

I often chide myself because I haven’t been writing much.

I should be writing, I think as I twist yarn around the pegs of my knitting loom, working on a hat for a friend for Christmas.

I should be writing, I think as I do the chores that have been neglected for days around my tiny abode.

I should be writing, I tell myself as I watch silly reel after silly reel on one of my social medias. At the very least trying to sell what I have written.

But I can’t seem to bring myself to push myself. Quite frankly, this year I am burnt out.

After the crazy month I had in November and the frenetic activity I do at the holidays, I just have a mental block that keeps me from creating my stories. The same mental block kept me from putting up my Christmas Village, the heart of two of my Village Stories, until this morning. And the only reason I even did that was because the ice storm that is still pelting my little swath of the Midwest with rain as I type this caused the Christmas event I was planning on attending today to cancel.

I’m just exhausted…. mentally, physically and emotionally. But there are tiny voices in my head saying I need to doing more….. that I need to be writing more…. or else I am not a writer anymore.

I should be writing.

I am still a writer, even as I haven’t released a new book since last November when Heirs to the Realm was published. I am still composing things in my head…. though I can’t seem to get them into the five different works in progress that I have going on. I am still a writer….. but I can’t force myself to write right now.

It will come. And as a dear friend pointed out the other day, I have EIGHTEEN published works out there that can be read between the Portals Series and The Magician, as well all the short stories that are migrating onto this blog from my old one and the blog posts that tend to lift peoples’ spirits.

I should be writing.

True…. but I also am working magic in other ways right now. So I AM still writing… just writing my own life story.

Besides, the writing has always come and gone in my forty four years on this earth. It will come again. Now is just a chapter that has little writing in it. But I am still a writer, despite the voices in my head. And those stories will come to life, just as the other eighteen already have.

Stay magical, friends.

Write your own story.

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7 thoughts on “I should be writing”

  2. Some people feel that they have to be writing every day. I don’t. If I force it I never come up with anything good. I go for ages not writing, and it doesn’t bother me. Last month I had a great idea, and I’ve been doing a certain amount every day, along with all my other housework, hobbies, exercise etc. Today though, as I’m so close to finishing the 1st draft I abandoned everything else and wrote all day. I still have one chapter to write tomorrow and it will be ready to begin editing and the rest. I feel very guilty for leaving everything else, but they get their turn. So don’t worry if you feel like knitting, or cooking or whatever instead of writing. There’ll be a time when it’s all you want to do. Go with the flow. 😊

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  3. A friend once told me and I’m going to tell you, “Stop ‘should-ing’ all over yourself.” We all need a break at times, no matter what that break is from. Give yourself some space, some grace, and when you’re rested and ready, your muse will start clamoring for an out again.

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  4. Break downs are hard and we tend to be hardest on ourselves. There is a reason for time to grieve. That’s for our minds and hearts to mend from our deep sorrow. Give yourself that time. And take that time to reflect as you have been on the impact these family and friends have had in your life. Memories of these love one, will one day, bring to you a story. Then the writing will being. Stay Magical my friend.

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