When it becomes too much

I’m currently working on yet another story in my Portals Series. This one is the story of an elemental magician by the name of Taylor who discovers he needs to come to the aid of one of his best friends in life while trying to figure out where his own place is since he rebels against the wishes of his parents. But things don’t go the way he hopes and when he is faced with a terrible decision, tragic results happen. Taylor becomes overwhelmed to the point where all he can do is lean on those he has come to trust. But can he trust them and can he figure out where he truly belongs? Or will things become too much for him to cope?

He’s overwhelmed by life, coupled with the traumatic disaster he needs to face.

Those who are close to me know that I can become overwhelmed very easily. I get overstimulated if there is a great deal going on, and my introverted nature becomes drained to the point where I think I can do nothing correct. Things become too much and I often find I can’t cope, even as I find I am stronger than I think I am.

It’s those moments that I crave my solitude.

But even in the quiet moments, things can become too much. Worries and doubts creep in, their voices filling the solitude with din and making emotions flare. They cause anxieties about everything, from finances to the state of the world to the future to relationships and policies. They cause me to overthink (so much so sometimes that I do have a sticker on my water bottle that reads “hang on, let me overthink this.”) They get to being too much, sometimes too fast.

But then, there are the calm moments too. The quiet of a spring evening when I have a moment to breathe. The unexpected showering of love in the form of a just because gift from a friend when I think no one really cares. The card in the mail that is full of stamps so I can continue my glad tidings project for a few more weeks when finances become tight. That little message via text that says “hey, I’m just thinking about you” when I’m having a rough time with the worries. The quiet moment during a hike when a cardinal trills from a branch or a buzzard takes flight above me and reminds me that the stories I write matter to me even if people don’t read them . Those are the moments of magic that remind me that everything is going to be okay and I just need to breathe.

Life can be too much sometimes.

But then there is always a silver lining.

I have learned to find the magic and the humor in situations. I am learning that I don’t need to be on top of everything. And I am learning there are still people I can lean on when life becomes too much.

Oh, and don’t worry about Taylor. He will find his way, just like all my other characters eventually do. He’ll figure it out, even as he experiences heartache and disaster. Because he is magical, just like we all are.

Stay magical, friends.

Write your own story.

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